I'm Just Such A Happy Mess

Have I ever told you guys how much I love my friends? No? Well, I love them a lot. I mean, we've been together for 5 about to be 6 years and with being teenagers that met during the 7th grade, this is the next best thing to being childhood friends.

A lot of things happen in this group. Nothing very dramatic like getting pregnant at the age of 13 but a whole bunch of bullshit that could have prevented(you know if they listened to me once in a while. :P).  We been worn down, we fought against each other but through every little 'fight' we had, we have countless of good memories. Our picnics, group sleepovers and our pointless sittings in McDonald's can keep me smiling until I die. :) 

This is why I suggested that we should make a mix CD of songs that kind of describe our friendship. It could be a specific song for two people or a song that shows an overall view of our friendship. I'm just so clever. ^_^ They all agreed to the ideas but only two of them came up with songs.  -__- I, on the other hand, have a really short list of songs that are for the whole group and I want to share. :)

( Three songs you probably don't care about. )


I love them. ^_^ Here's to hoping that they all play a part in my future. :) 

I have no idea why I'm writing my 'review' for it four months after it's release but this isn't really a review. It's more a realization. This album is really fucking amazing. It didn't take me four months to realize it but every time I play Danger Days on my iPod or on my radio, my heart just gets heavy with emotion and pride.

( tl;dr )

The time when you first started writing fan fiction?

Oh geez, every time I think about my first story I cringe. I also cringe at my second story and my third and possibly my fourth but I'm getting off topic. Over the past 2 days, I have had the urge to go back to Quizilla and take some of the '7 minutes in heaven' bandom quizzes. I used to take them all the time when I was in the 8th and 9th grade before Myspace took over my life. Anyway, after satisfying my need to take the quizzes and reading the results, they were all really poorly written and really fucking sappy. That, my friends, was how my writing started out. Ahhh, the good ol' times when you made your favorite band member love you with no strings attached because you're the main character. (or however many strings you want attached. This is your fucking story, you write what ever the hell you want. You're the main character.)

ANYWAY, my writing style has developed so much from when I started, it's pretty shocking. I write at longer lengths and I include way more details. I also don't include myself in stories. I write slash now and very descriptive. Never thought I would actually do that. :)

I actually thought I would write more about the subject but I'm listening to My Chemical Romance live shows on youtube and it's kind of making my mind jump around with awesomeness so under the cut is one of my FIRST ever fan fiction attempt, misspelling and all. I am sorry. Second cut is the most recent.

( 2007 )

( 2010 )

It's fun and I post more personal things here than in tumblr. Well, all of my actual blogs were from tumblr but.... you know. Just getting comfortable with the switch. :)

So on Friday, I am going to school and when that bell rings at 2:20, I'm rushing home, changing my clothes. buying/making food and get to Roseland ballroom where Delaney and Amanda are going to be in line for My Chemical Romance. :) MY CHEM IS BACK AND I'M SEEING THEIR FIRST (technically second but since you can actually buy tickets to this show, I'm counting it as first.) SHOW IN NEW YORK CITY. :D yay!

I'm also excited about Patrick's new song! It's called Spotlight and both versions of the songs are AMAZING!. This man is a freaking genius and I can't wait for the rest of the world to realize it. As much as I don't like the winter, I can't wait for February when Soul Punk comes out. ♥♥♥ I think Patrick's solo project gets the most love from me and possibly all the other Fall Out Boy fans. It's more closer to the FOB songs than Black Cards or The Damned things are. Another reason why I'm freaking excited for Soul Punk is that it isn't anything like Pete's lyrics. It's isn't cryptic but it's just as smart. Patrick tells you what he wants to tell you, not making you work hard to figure it out.

The last part of this is just telling anyone who reads this (me in the future. Forever alone.) that I am writing a short one shot. After reading a copy of my free subscription of Seventeen magazine about guys that rape or take advantage of girls too drunk to know what they are even doing, I thought about writing a fic like that. Before writing this, I had comments on my killjoy fic saying that I needed work on it. Some comments were more nicely put together than others while one comment pretty much bashed me. :| Surprisingly, It didn't phase me as much as I thought it would but it got me thinking about my writing. I'm not as good as I think I am. I told my friends I didn't really want to keep writing if I really don't think I'm good enough and I'm just posting it on the internet. What good does that really do me for my future in writing? I also am seeming to move away from Fan-fiction. I haven't really been reading any these few weeks and writing them has been staggered over the few days. In all honesty, I give myself a few days before 'My writing sucks. Why do I keep telling myself I'm a good writer?' phase fades away. I always do this but I never learn. *shrug*

Damn.... It looks like I wrote a lot. Bye livejournal, I'm gonna go finish Glee. :D

at the MCR concert, they only play for an hour. :(

I want two hour of MCR goodness. They also released the dates for their tour. Hoping I can go to that one too if my parents are up for it.

This has been a short rant or sharing of opinions.

Does My Chemical Romance's song "The Only Hope For Me Is You" sound like another version of the song "Stay"?

Wow, an actual journal post! 

I’m proud of it and so far only my friends have read it. It’s not gonna be on the interweb soon because it’s 6 pages and I’m lazy. :)

It’s just basically the killjoys with my killjoy character, Bitch-Bot Violence meeting. (‘My Character’ as in Bitch-Bot violence is my name.)

Again, I’m proud of it. I was itching to write it and I did! YAY!

I'll probably post it here than on Ficwad because my LJ is for my proud fics. :D 

Title: Untitled
Author:ruthiestump 
Pairing: OFC/Ray Toro
Rating:  R
Warning: Hot and heavy make out session
Disclaimer: FICTION which means fake.
Summary: Goody two shoes Juile is finally going to come out her shell.

( She had never felt the thrill of being caught but she quickly learned that she loved it. Being with Ray would give her just that. It didn’t matter that it was against the school rules; this was her new after school hobby. )