I'm Just Such A Happy Mess

People need to get back on and feed my need for wonderful bandom fanfics bring beautiful life to my flist. I, too, am guilty of not updating my journal so I'm going to change that today! 

Did you know that two days ago, I heard Heaven Help Us by My Chemical Romance in its entirety? I kind of kicked myself after I finished it because it's a beautiful song. like REALLY pretty. Gerard's voice sounds angelic to me which isn't how I would categorize his voice any other time. ANYWAYS... once I find a song I like, I play it over and over again until some other song comes along. So this post only serves for lyrics that I love in this song. (You're probably just shaking your head because you know the lyrics like you know the back of your hand but humor me. :)) 

• I'm at this old hotel but I can't tell if I've been screaming or sleeping or screaming or waiting for the man to call
• I've been sprawled on these cathedral steps while spitting out the blood and screaming "Someone save us!"
• And will you pray for me? 
• Cover me in gasoline.
• Wipe away those tears of blood away.
• How the misery begins.

Those aren't a lot but these stood out to me and when lyrics stand out to me, it usually means that some way, some how, I'm going to use them in a story. Naturally, the story the lyrics paint out in my head is a 1920's Mobster!Frikey fic. Or something along the lines of hired killers. I mean, think about it. I would write out the plot but it's nearing 2am, I'm watching Archer on Netflix, and my mind is wandering. Expect the plot in a few hours. :D 

This is a semi-good idea, isn't it!



#IdeasByMCRMusicVideos

Posting a snippet of this fic that I really wanted to do something with but when I started writing the idea went to hell. It was for the mcr_bingo prompt 'Artist: Patrick Stump' and I wanted to do a Gerard/Patrick where Gee is listening to Patrick's new album and is reliving their summer together, (Summer of Like) and may or may not jerk off to Patrick's amazing voice. That's what I wanted to do but I didn't see myself following that path. Posting it here because my LJ seems empty. 


( By the by, the journal title is in spanish. YAY for hispanic heritage! )

So, this post is just a list for my friends who I told agreed to write me a story for Christmas. I've written a handful of stories for them through out the years and I only have like three from them. I thought we should switch it up this time around. I'm already making them a copy of the friends mixtape as my Christmas gift. 

Christmas Assignments: All due before xmas break. 

( Amanda's Prompt )

( [De]Laney's Prompt (TROLOLOL) )

( Taylor's Prompt )

You guys are going to great with this! :D I can't wait! Love you! 

I'm not a writer. I finally figured it out. I'm not good enough. I know this but I know I won't stop. I'll beat myself to the ground with my doubt and low self esteem but I won't stop. At least not forever.

Question is: I know that i'm not good at writing, then what am I going to do in college? *sigh*

I really have to stop watching television. Dangerous ideas that have been used over and over pass through my mind.

While watching Fuse's Sexist Drake videos due boredom, the Bedrock video came on. The video is basically a "The Real World"  parody but for Young Money which got me to thinking about something everyone else most likely thought of!

BANDOM REAL WORLD :D 

I mean, If I had the time and talent , I would write it. Or at the very least, search for it.

Just the thought of it though. Fall Out Boy and My Chem in a house. A whole bunch of hookups, drunken nights, boundries crossed and A LOT OF FUCKING DRAMA. I'm loving it already. ^_^ 

While stalking my Mikey Way tag on tumblr, I stumbled across a post that contained song facts for each song on The Black Parade. For Famous Last Words this was there.

• Gerard wrote the song for Mikey when he left the band during the making of The Black Parade. The line “I see you lying next to me” refers to Mikey sleeping on the floor in Gerard’s room in the Paramour Mansion (because he was too scared to sleep in a room alone)
• Mikey said when he heard it, he knew he couldn’t leave the band

So not having heard the recording of Famous Last Words in a very long time, (because I only have The Black Parade is Dead on my ipod. It sucks because I don't even like live concert recordings. :| ) I looked for a lyric video and watched it.

Now that I have the right lyrics in my head, I have never wanted to cry so hard at a My Chem song/ the relationship between Gerard and Mikey. That is so fucking sweet. Damn you Gerard. I wish I could be that close with my siblings.

I now want bb!Gerard and bb!Mikey fics. Sweet brotherly love fanfics that make your heart want to puke rainbows. Or specifically a fic where big brother Gerard has to come into Mikey's room and scare off the monsters under his bed and maybe, MAYBE has to spend the night. Something like that. :D 

I might write it if i have time or don't forget.