I'm Just Such A Happy Mess

I love making stuff on photofiltre. I always think it looks like a legit graphic/banner before I go on the internet and see, y'know, legit graphics. :) This post is basically a follow up to THIS POST. and I'm basically filling up your flist.


( Second rate banners under here. )

People need to get back on and feed my need for wonderful bandom fanfics bring beautiful life to my flist. I, too, am guilty of not updating my journal so I'm going to change that today! 

Did you know that two days ago, I heard Heaven Help Us by My Chemical Romance in its entirety? I kind of kicked myself after I finished it because it's a beautiful song. like REALLY pretty. Gerard's voice sounds angelic to me which isn't how I would categorize his voice any other time. ANYWAYS... once I find a song I like, I play it over and over again until some other song comes along. So this post only serves for lyrics that I love in this song. (You're probably just shaking your head because you know the lyrics like you know the back of your hand but humor me. :)) 

• I'm at this old hotel but I can't tell if I've been screaming or sleeping or screaming or waiting for the man to call
• I've been sprawled on these cathedral steps while spitting out the blood and screaming "Someone save us!"
• And will you pray for me? 
• Cover me in gasoline.
• Wipe away those tears of blood away.
• How the misery begins.

Those aren't a lot but these stood out to me and when lyrics stand out to me, it usually means that some way, some how, I'm going to use them in a story. Naturally, the story the lyrics paint out in my head is a 1920's Mobster!Frikey fic. Or something along the lines of hired killers. I mean, think about it. I would write out the plot but it's nearing 2am, I'm watching Archer on Netflix, and my mind is wandering. Expect the plot in a few hours. :D 

Have I ever told you guys how I really love Three Cheers and kind of hated the fact The Black Parade Is Dead! was a short [The Black Parade setlist] concert? No? Well, all of that is true which is why I'm posting the VENGANZA concert up here for my viewing pleasure. And yours. 





( VENGANZA track list )

So just a quick update before I gush about Pete Wentz..... I'm failing a few of my classes, Might see Patrick Stump on Nov. 16, dropping out of the NaNoWriMo and Life is stupid. Now in this blog I'll shall give you another reason why I love Pete's writing. ♥


( i’m up to the hips with dreams. )

Due to these pictures:
( Way bros are just working it. )

I now want to see a fic where Gerard and Mikey are professional models. I just want it to exist. Someone... please. Make me happy.

I wish you the best. I really do. You bring smiles to my face and you can lift my mood and I hope today people are doing the same for you. You deserve it.

I look up to you. It doesn't matter that you're my 'favorite' member or that I find you very attractive. (I do. Trust me. I REALLY DO.) It's your personality that I look up to. Your struggles, your ambition, your choices in life. You fought through your depression and even if it doesn't matter, I'm proud of you. You make everyone in your band feel loved. To me you're the go-to guy! The one every one goes to. The kind of person I aspire to be. ♥

Never change that. Never change your personality. Play with all the hair dye you want! Just never change the good person I know you are. I know I kind of wasted my time on writing a post to someone who will NEVER see it but damn it. This 31 year old celebrity man means so much to me. ♥


I don't think you guys understand how much I want a guy like Mikey in my life.

While stalking my Mikey Way tag on tumblr, I stumbled across a post that contained song facts for each song on The Black Parade. For Famous Last Words this was there.

• Gerard wrote the song for Mikey when he left the band during the making of The Black Parade. The line “I see you lying next to me” refers to Mikey sleeping on the floor in Gerard’s room in the Paramour Mansion (because he was too scared to sleep in a room alone)
• Mikey said when he heard it, he knew he couldn’t leave the band

So not having heard the recording of Famous Last Words in a very long time, (because I only have The Black Parade is Dead on my ipod. It sucks because I don't even like live concert recordings. :| ) I looked for a lyric video and watched it.

Now that I have the right lyrics in my head, I have never wanted to cry so hard at a My Chem song/ the relationship between Gerard and Mikey. That is so fucking sweet. Damn you Gerard. I wish I could be that close with my siblings.

I now want bb!Gerard and bb!Mikey fics. Sweet brotherly love fanfics that make your heart want to puke rainbows. Or specifically a fic where big brother Gerard has to come into Mikey's room and scare off the monsters under his bed and maybe, MAYBE has to spend the night. Something like that. :D 

I might write it if i have time or don't forget.  

Title: Someone Out There Loves You
Author: ruthiestump a.k.a me. :)
Pairing: Frerard (Frank/Gerard)
Rating: PG-13/R for language.
Warning: Attempted Suicide. No beta.
Word Count: 1,818
mcr_bingo prompt: Other: Suicidal
Disclaimer: This is fiction which means FAKE. I do not own My Chemical Romance and Mikey Way is not really this mean.
Summary: Gerard isn't the most stable person so when Mikey tells him what's on his mind, Gerard is ready to take his life.

( What else could he do? )

or fan fiction. I don’t know. After I read a good story, my heart gets so fluttery that I want to start writing.

The ideas just flow through my head and the only reason why I get the ideas down on paper so woven together (sometimes. I usually ramble in my stories thinking people already know what I’m talking about.) is so I can know exactly remember how I envisioned when I wrote it down. Writing just makes me smile. :)

( just like this cute mofo right here. )