I'm Just Such A Happy Mess

I really have to stop watching television. Dangerous ideas that have been used over and over pass through my mind.

While watching Fuse's Sexist Drake videos due boredom, the Bedrock video came on. The video is basically a "The Real World"  parody but for Young Money which got me to thinking about something everyone else most likely thought of!

BANDOM REAL WORLD :D 

I mean, If I had the time and talent , I would write it. Or at the very least, search for it.

Just the thought of it though. Fall Out Boy and My Chem in a house. A whole bunch of hookups, drunken nights, boundries crossed and A LOT OF FUCKING DRAMA. I'm loving it already. ^_^ 

Yeah? Here's another one for you. This time, I'm not really complaining.

It's day 18 out of 21 and as you can tell I'm leaving soon. I'm out of my sulking phase that I was so comfortable in in the beginning and it left around the second week. Once I get the hang of things, I become more accepting. Just a little known fact about me. I saw the last Harry Potter here and I love this place even more because of it. I passed my 2nd Hitler and Nazi Germany test and I can't be any more proud of it. :D 

Will I miss Davidson? Hmmm... That's a good question. I think I will. Later on in life. I think I wold miss my classes most of all and remember them when I'm actually in college. :) Nice memories to have. :D 

I have nothing else to say. I just wanted to make a post because my blog feels empty without it.

I don't know why but fanfition is near and dear to my heart so when a big time magazine talks about fanfiction in a positive light, it makes me smile. Here's a quote and a link.

Fan fiction is what literature might look like if it were reinvented from scratch after a nuclear apocalypse by a band of brilliant pop-culture junkies trapped in a sealed bunker. They don’t do it for money. That’s not what it’s about. The writers write it and put it up online just for the satisfaction. They’re fans, but they’re not silent, couchbound consumers of media. The culture talks to them, and they talk back to the culture in its own language.

TIME MAGAZINE

Well, cue that feeling for me the past two days and possibly the next couple of days while I'm here in Davidson. :|

I feel so out of my element here. In my sorry excuse for a school (Trust me, It is a sorry excuse for a high school. Im not even being dramatic.) I'm part of the smart people group, when I'm not being lazy, one of the people that most of my 62 fellow classmates came to for help. I get most of my stuff right and I do it with good quality. As you just read, I only have 62 students in my grade. Not much to say about my intelligence when you only compare it to 62 fucking people.

Now fast forward to me being in July Experience, an expensive 3 week academic program at Davidson college, where I'm learning college lessons with 67 other people from around the nation/world. Most of them paid for this oppurtunity. When I'm in class discussing the readings and shit, I feel so fucking stupid I want to curl up into a ball and cry. I don't know these people and they're SMARTER than me. Oh god.

Look at me now, bitching on my livejournal during my degsinated study time. o.O I am so going to fucking pass this. <sarcasm over> Oh and most of the people here actually go to a legit high school. With books and teachers and something more than a  fucking one story building. Ugh, I need to learn things. (at a high school level though; this college level is making me stressed.)

I also need to talk to people. It might just be the third day (and I'm already complaing. look at me. ) but people already have friends and my room mate and I have run out of things to talk about. News Flash: I'm boring when I don't know you. Ok. I'm done complaining. I'm going to try to get through the 40 pages I have to read.

Sorry to bore you, livejournal peeps.

I think I can honestly say you are one of idols ♥

The way you write. The way you just put your thoughts together. The way you keep me guessing with your fucking cryptic messages and not so cryptic messages.

I can't. Every time I read your stuff, new or old journal posts, my heart gets heavy like every time I truly take the time to listen to Fall Out Boy's lyrics. I can't give the respect and admiration I have for you in proper words. ♥♥♥

( HIS WORDS MAN.  )
On a related note, I might be starting to believe that Pikey happened. Damn my gullible mind. :|

While stalking my Mikey Way tag on tumblr, I stumbled across a post that contained song facts for each song on The Black Parade. For Famous Last Words this was there.

• Gerard wrote the song for Mikey when he left the band during the making of The Black Parade. The line “I see you lying next to me” refers to Mikey sleeping on the floor in Gerard’s room in the Paramour Mansion (because he was too scared to sleep in a room alone)
• Mikey said when he heard it, he knew he couldn’t leave the band

So not having heard the recording of Famous Last Words in a very long time, (because I only have The Black Parade is Dead on my ipod. It sucks because I don't even like live concert recordings. :| ) I looked for a lyric video and watched it.

Now that I have the right lyrics in my head, I have never wanted to cry so hard at a My Chem song/ the relationship between Gerard and Mikey. That is so fucking sweet. Damn you Gerard. I wish I could be that close with my siblings.

I now want bb!Gerard and bb!Mikey fics. Sweet brotherly love fanfics that make your heart want to puke rainbows. Or specifically a fic where big brother Gerard has to come into Mikey's room and scare off the monsters under his bed and maybe, MAYBE has to spend the night. Something like that. :D 

I might write it if i have time or don't forget.  

Fan fic fanatics is a fan fiction site (obviously) that houses My Chemical Romance fan fics. It is run by two women (yes, women. Not teenagers, full grown mature TALENTED women.) who write the fiction and have been fans of MCR for as long as they remember.
Their stories rage from various topics you rarely see in other fanfics with such incredibly detail and length, you’d wish they can publish this as a book. 
^_^ I love how they write and I swear to you as you read you will cry out in either horror, joy or just plain suspense.

Read the one shot My Chemical Bromance to get you started. It might be lengthy but it’s worth the fucking read!

I really love these stories. ♥

( Cool My Chem banner for the site )

These challenges are really fun! I don't usually talk about myself on here and I haven't been posting much so the challenge are a good way to talk about myself. You know, because you really have a genuine interest in my life. :| Anyway, take a look into my music sense and my thought process. Feel free to take the challenge because I found it here. I want to see you guys do one. *hint hint nudge nudge*

( 10 Day iPod shuffle Challenge answers )

You guys don't really know that much about me, do you? Hmm... I should change that. Here's a bit about the girl behind the keyboard (oh wow, how original) and a picture so you can judge me. ^_^


( 10 Secrets )

( 9 Loves )

( 8 Fears )

( 7 Wants )

( 6 Places you want to go. )

( 5 Foods )

( 4 books )

( 3 Films )

( 2 songs )

( 1 picture of yourself )