( i’m up to the hips with dreams. )
( i’m up to the hips with dreams. )
So, what to announce?
- I signed up for the NaNoWriMo. *holds for appluase that will never come* I'm pretty nervous about it. I've never written a story that has reached 20,000 words so trying to get to 50,000 words in a month might be a struggle not to mention school, college applications, and homework getting in the way. Wait... tell me why I signed up in the first place? *sigh* I guess I'm doing this so I could prove to myself that I can be a writer. That I somewhat have what it takes to be a writer. That, maybe, under this time crunch I can finally get the hang of time managing and responsibility. Who the fuck am I kidding? I signed up just to see if I could do it
and maybe show up my friend who is obviously better then me in writing.
- Patrick Stump's album, Soul Punk, came out yesterday and since I pre-ordered, my CD arrived the Thursday before. :3 I can not review the album because I won't do it justice. Just know that this album is basically perfection. I've been hearing it non-stop. ♥
- I bought a pink wig! Not at all news worthy but It fills up the entry. I bought it just to have it and wear it in the house and out on the street. I wore it on Monday and got one compliment from this random guy. ("You rocking that pink hair.") A lot of stares. It's like people haven't seen people with dyed hair before. :)
See you soon!
I haven't posted any fics in a while so I thought I would post up the first paragraph of one of the mcr_bingo prompts. This one is for AU: Vampire and I was pretty proud of it... until my creativity flew away. -___- Oh imagination, why must you hurt me so?
( Bampire! Bampire! )
Today is my 17th birthday (YAY!) and when I arrived home after getting 4 boxes of pizza, I found that my best friend had bought a small brown bunny. For me. HE BOUGHT ME A LEGIT BUNNY FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
I was shocked. Like fucking shocked. I never thought that I would get another pet because I live in an apartment in New York City and I already have a dog. It was just a mindfuck and I have no idea what to name her.
She\s cute and if you guys have ideas, feel free to comment. :)
( Run, run, bunny, run! )
It really hurts to not be able to work on the re-write of this story I'm working on or the drafts that I have for mcr_bingo. I want to just drop all of the forms, essays, worksheets and questions that are filling up my time and just finish and edit the stories.
SENSITIVE RUTH/WRITER PROBLEMS.
I look up to you. It doesn't matter that you're my 'favorite' member or that I find you very attractive. (I do. Trust me. I REALLY DO.) It's your personality that I look up to. Your struggles, your ambition, your choices in life. You fought through your depression and even if it doesn't matter, I'm proud of you. You make everyone in your band feel loved. To me you're the go-to guy! The one every one goes to. The kind of person I aspire to be. ♥
Never change that. Never change your personality. Play with all the hair dye you want! Just never change the good person I know you are. I know I kind of wasted my time on writing a post to someone who will NEVER see it but damn it. This 31 year old
I don't think you guys understand how much I want a guy like Mikey in my life.
I've noticed that I have to step up my game and actually try to do my homework this year. It hurts me to say that. It really does. If I do homework this year that means I have to lay off on writing/readng fan fiction. :( I've become really close to fanfiction. It's a second skin really. I'm going to miss it. (assuming that I actually buckle down and do what I set out to do.)
So here's to senior year and not having a mental/physical breakdown. :|
On other not important news: I started out lining the bandom real world fic. I have no idea why since I know I'm not going to write it soon but I'm getting myself excited. Once I finish the re-write I'm working on, I'll start working on the RW one and shape it to a passable fan fic.
Four days from now I'll be a High School Senior. Oh where does the time go? I have to start applying to colleges soon. Kind of scary but I'm ready for it! My birthday is coming up. Not really a big deal since it's the 17th year I'm alive so all I'm looking forward to is hanging out with my friends.
See, now I'm just rambiling about stupid stuff. To recap: Frikey is amazing, Bandom Real World is outlined for no reason, School is starting and my birthday is this month. YAY. I'll get out of your Flist now.
I really have to stop watching television. Dangerous ideas that have been used over and over pass through my mind.
While watching Fuse's Sexist Drake videos due boredom, the Bedrock video came on. The video is basically a "The Real World" parody but for Young Money which got me to thinking about something everyone else most likely thought of!
BANDOM REAL WORLD :D
I mean, If I had the time
Just the thought of it though. Fall Out Boy and My Chem in a house. A whole bunch of hookups, drunken nights, boundries crossed and A LOT OF FUCKING DRAMA. I'm loving it already. ^_^
Some way or another, feelings will start to grow. One person will like the feeling of having someone to call for a casual hook up and possibly gain romantic feelings that they haven't felt with their other partners. Others might get jelous that they aren't their friends with benefits isn't going to hang around them once they get into a relationship and therefore get hung up on the FWB. OR The person who always calls for the sex and keeps getting it might get an inflated ego and become an asshole and become abusive.
I don't know what runs through my mind.
It's day 18 out of 21 and as you can tell I'm leaving soon. I'm out of my sulking phase that I was so comfortable in in the beginning and it left around the second week. Once I get the hang of things, I become more accepting. Just a little known fact about me. I saw the last Harry Potter here and I love this place even more because of it. I passed my 2nd Hitler and Nazi Germany test and I can't be any more proud of it. :D
Will I miss Davidson? Hmmm... That's a good question. I think I will. Later on in life. I think I wold miss my classes most of all and remember them when I'm actually in college. :) Nice memories to have. :D
I have nothing else to say. I just wanted to make a post because my blog feels empty without it.
For my reference because you guys don't care.
“You Got Me” and “Faith(When I Let You Down)” -Taking Back Sunday.
Taylor’s friendships by songs:
Kevin and I : “Lose My Breath” by Destiny’s Child
Delaney and I: “Teenager” by MCR or “Live a little” by GCH
Ruth and I: “Open Happiness” or “Can’t Take My Eyes off of You” by Lauren Hill
Jose and I: “Unthinkable(I’m Ready)” by Alicia Keys
Amanda and I: “We are Who We are” by Ke$ha
Time after Time by Cyndi Lauper
Grenade Jumper by Fall Out Boy
The World Has It’s Shine (I Would Drop It On A Dime) by Cobra Starship
Give ‘Em Hell, Kid by My Chemical Romance
True Colors (Glee)
Order of the songs coming later!
I don't know why but fanfition is near and dear to my heart so when a big time magazine talks about fanfiction in a positive light, it makes me smile. Here's a quote and a link.
Fan fiction is what literature might look like if it were reinvented from scratch after a nuclear apocalypse by a band of brilliant pop-culture junkies trapped in a sealed bunker. They don’t do it for money. That’s not what it’s about. The writers write it and put it up online just for the satisfaction. They’re fans, but they’re not silent, couchbound consumers of media. The culture talks to them, and they talk back to the culture in its own language.TIME MAGAZINE
It's always like this, the first couple of days I'm miserable. And it does not help that they have every single hour of our day planned. The schedule is fucking suffocating me. You can't force people to be social, damn it. I think I'm being anti-social just to spite them.
Here's to the next few days and a bit of happiness/relaxation.
Well, cue that feeling for me the past two days and possibly the next couple of days while I'm here in Davidson. :|
I feel so out of my element here. In my sorry excuse for a school (Trust me, It is a sorry excuse for a high school. Im not even being dramatic.) I'm part of the smart people group, when I'm not being lazy, one of the people that most of my 62 fellow classmates came to for help. I get most of my stuff right and I do it with good quality. As you just read, I only have 62 students in my grade. Not much to say about my intelligence when you only compare it to 62 fucking people.
Now fast forward to me being in July Experience, an expensive 3 week academic program at Davidson college, where I'm learning college lessons with 67 other people from around the nation/world. Most of them paid for this oppurtunity. When I'm in class discussing the readings and shit, I feel so fucking stupid I want to curl up into a ball and cry. I don't know these people and they're SMARTER than me. Oh god.
Look at me now, bitching on my livejournal during my degsinated study time. o.O I am so going to fucking pass this. <sarcasm over> Oh and most of the people here actually go to a legit high school. With books and teachers and something more than a fucking one story building. Ugh, I need to learn things. (at a high school level though; this college level is making me stressed.)
I also need to talk to people. It might just be the third day (and I'm already complaing. look at me. ) but people already have friends and my room mate and I have run out of things to talk about. News Flash: I'm boring when I don't know you. Ok. I'm done complaining. I'm going to try to get through the 40 pages I have to read.
Sorry to bore you, livejournal peeps.
So for about 20 days, I will be gracing Davidson College with my presence learning about literature and Hitler. Sounds like fun! </Sarcasm>
But I'm looking forward to it. I had fun when I went to Andover last summer so I might have a good time this summer. I'll probably be blogging on here during the time and I pray to the God I usually believe in that he would let me see Harry Potter when I'm over there.
See you later LJ peeps.
I think I can honestly say you are one of idols ♥
The way you write. The way you just put your thoughts together. The way you keep me guessing with your fucking cryptic messages and not so cryptic messages.
I can't. Every time I read your stuff, new or old journal posts, my heart gets heavy like every time I truly take the time to listen to Fall Out Boy's lyrics. I can't give the respect and admiration I have for you in proper words. ♥♥♥
( HIS WORDS MAN. )
On a related note, I might be starting to believe that Pikey happened. Damn my gullible mind. :|
( Random fic idea )
I feel like I could do a good job of it... Here's to that.